winter thoughts

"study with me" / body doubling / parallel play

:(

M.O.L.E.

1. after some stalking, i found out it's not a russian game, good

2. it's on sale in the same bundle with russian games, bad

3. компанія на яку працює головний герой називається STRATA.... i mean with this work environment?... you're not wrong

brings me will to live

today's sun feels like autumn sun

good

"feels like +16°C"

more like "feels like heaven"

Inscryption

That guy is like a DM who had a whole campaign meticulously prepared but no one to play so he kidnaps you to play at his murder cabin (milkymero)

RE: I mean have you tried scheduling a regular dnd game? (generatoralignmentdevalue)

your nervous system is a pattern detector, not a truth detector

DAAAAAAYYYUUMMMM

sitting near the lake, with umbrella, eating greek yogurt while it rains af

wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now

today's loud noises in the sky are just thunder, not explosions

незнання історії не звільняє від відповідальності

frogs and insects are still loud af

their spirit is unbreakable

oh nooooo i hope my piano will live ;_;

well that was loud

wow, ballistics huh

what could be worse than unbearable heat?

air raid danger for ~6 hours AND unbearable heat

🎥 What Is It Like to Be a Guard in Skyrim?

what the fuck THIS IS SO COOL?!!!!?????

Skyrim + voiceacting + normal moderation + genuine roleplaying with like-minded people???????

i mean i knew about such Skyrim & Morrowind mods, but i didn't realize the COMMITMENT of some people, and the whole COMMUNITIES behind it...

action relieves anxiety

you all will forever live/be inside my worlds

worldbuilding is one of the ways to process my grief

it's like making a memorial???

i'm aware they're gone, but i still have pieces of them in me

i guess it's something very very close to being spiritual???

it will not bring them back, but it can give memories of them a new home. like our dead ones just move to their new homes

I feel as though everyone treats me as suspicious, and anything I do or say will only confirm their suspicions of me, and nothing I can do will alleviate them.

at least i started to talk with Baph again. he's kinda the voice of reason here. probably the only one in my head when i'm depressed af lmao

checkmate, cognitive biases, i have an imaginary friend

what is good for me? what makes me feel good?

.....

buying another plushie will heal me 100%

(i had a dream few days ago. there were toys and plushies sorted by colors and all mine to choose from ;_;)

music talks

• DAI OST (Main Theme): оці великі барабани з м'яким кінцем + труби МАЮТЬ БУТИ ЩОБ ПОКАЗАТИ НАСКІЛЬКИ ЩОСЬ БІЛЬШЕ ЗА ТЕБЕ

• ME OST (Living the Earth): робити фон тихим коли на екрані відбувається щось ПИЗДЕЦОВЕ І ГУЧНЕ це ніби показати dissociation through melody WTF!!!! THIS IS SO PRECIOUS!!!!

боже наскільки же музика охуєнний інструмент для творчості 😭😭😭

(sorry not sorry, i'm insane about music)

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