winter_thoughts.txt

з супом завжди краще

курячий суп з локшиною, яйцем, морквою + чорний хліб

a scorched patch of grass is surrounded by the endless concrete

thank gods today's temperature maximum is +13° U_U 人

i'll live

confused and tired and useless

may kompyuter

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темні-темні хмари, тінь від дерев

омґс...

fav snacks #1

• шоколад з м'ятою (Millennium)

• "незрадний кіндер пінґві" (milino milk snack)

• морозиво сендвич (Хрещатик або інші схожі)

• печиво "горішок" (від будь-кого)

just realized thing i have has a name: under eye hollows or sunken eye hollows

cool

not cool that when i try to search about it, most of the results are about HOW TO GET RID OF IT HOW TO USE MAKE UP TO HIDE IT

🎥 NEW EZSMALL R.E.P.O. 3HRS VIDEO!!!!!!!! I MISSED THEM SO MUCH!!!

бачили ЇЖАКА

oh my fucking gods i love games and modding so so so much i needed to stimm this all out or else i would explode!!!!!!!

🎥 Skywind 2026: The Road Continued

sobbing this is so beautiful this is just something that will stay in history i swear

crossposting from this thread about RPG Maker

RPG Maker was my very first game engine! i used it when i was in high school.

it def helped me to try gamedev, even if it's as simplified as basic RPG Maker system (i know it could be heavily modified, but i'm talking about simplicity of the basics).

i think this experience is still helping me! i feel like it gives me confidence in myself, because i already know i can do this.

i really want to try gamedev again, probably Twine/Godot/RenPy, but maybe RPG Maker as well?

fun fact: i confessed to my crush with making a small game about it with RPG Maker, and giving them USB drive >_< (i was 16 or 17)

my favorite games:

• Fausts Alptraum

• End Roll

• Look Outside

• The Front Yard

• To the Moon

• A Bird Story

• Witch's Heart

• Dead Plate

• Jishogi

• Witch's Heart

І цупким, наче нить основи,

Крізь віки однієї сім'ї,

Невразливим — пронесли слово

І внизали в легені мої

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'Рядок з автобіографії' Оксана Забужко

(NO I WON'T RANT ABOUT CERTAIN WAY-TOO-COMMON KARELIA-PHOBIC BELIEFS IN FINLAND AND WHEN IT DESPERATELY TRIES TO BE AN 'EMPIRE' DESPITE HAVING THE SAME COLONIZERS (SWEDEN+RUSSIA) IN THE PAST)

(normal Finns, i love you)

i mean, i could say карельська ведмежа лайка/Karelian Bear Dog, but it's kinda cheating, isn't it? :D

P.S. Wikipedia be like 'origin: Finland'. 'Finland' in question: "Basic stock dogs originated from the Ladoga Karelia, Olonets Karelia, and East¹ Karelia where they were used for hunting." DOESN'T SOUND FINNISH TO ME??

also ¹East Karelia a.k.a. Eastern from Finland, like were are not our own land, but just "Eastern part of Great Superior Central Finland"

(YES I'M BITTER!!!)

(FINNISH NATIONALISTS DNI /hj)

and to important questions: if i was an animal then i would be вівцебик/muskox (ovibos moschatus)!!!

JUST LOOK AT IT!!!

Вівцебики надають перевагу сухим територіям арктичної тундри, оскільки є дуже чутливими до вологості: у вологих середовищах швидко починають хворіти на пневмонію.

i feel you brother... me too, me too...

Харчуються мохом, лишайниками, травою, різними видами кущів і беріз. Охоче їдять пухівки, осоки, астрагали, куничники, тонконоги, луговики, лисохвости та інше. /// Muskoxen will eat grasses, arctic willows, woody plants, lichens and mosses. When food is abundant, they prefer succulent and nutritious grasses in an area. Willows are the most commonly eaten plants in the winter.

my diet for realll

my 'home' is not wooden

and my stomach is empty

this soil speaks welcome

yet she isn't of me

(me when- me when- me when-)

traveling roots

I lived in an age where we didn't have Internet, and then suddenly. BOOM. We had Internet.

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benchokid

maybe Ukrainian trees will offer me refuge, not as for their friend or a child, but as for a humble guest

i hope Karelian and Ukrainian trees talk to each other sometimes

forest's child with the broken legs, being supported by the roots of the Trees

not strained, not choked, or grappled; only supported

I like how you voice the characters, infact i like it so much I've been doing myself for awhile whenever text appears with no audio and there's spectators

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@orbital_planetoid about Manly's voiceacting

THIS

курячий суп з локшиною та яйцем...... мммм....

Don't bother googling Sotha Sil Rule 34, a tragic lack of results!

true ;_;

body horror: having a body

hunger reminds me I HAVE A BODY AND IT HAS NEEDS

horrible

Darkwood

considering that Villagers are often seen nearby their village, Savages use natural materials, i assume it's the Wolfsman who put bear traps all around the forest

AND THEN I DISARM THEM AND COLLECT A METAL SCRAP TO MAKE MY OWN TRAPS LMAO

just don't forget to ask for help and stay sane

do not isolate

(found in my old notes)

was reading about mountains for worldbuilding and really liked this description:

One of the most noticeable aspects of living in a mountainous area is the significant daily temperature variation. Mornings typically begin with a cool, invigorating chill, as the sun is still low, and the night air lingers. As the sun rises, the temperature increases swiftly, particularly on clear days. By midday, the heat can become quite intense, with the rocky terrain and sparse vegetation reflecting the warmth. This fluctuation necessitates dressing in layers, starting the day with a warm jacket and transitioning to lighter, breathable clothing by afternoon. The rapid temperature changes also influence daily activities, as the midday heat can be quite exhausting, especially during physically demanding tasks.

or maybe it's just The Internet in general

autistic-northern-person summer hazard suit includes:

✔ cargo pants (full-length)

✔ ridiculous wide brim "straw" hat

✔ cotton undershirt (майка)

✔ cotton not tight light-colored shirt (also full-length sleeves)

✔ sunscreen

✔ running shoes

✔ high light-colored cotton socks (fuck you bugs!!!)

wishlist:

░ sunglasses (with actual glass, not plastic)

░ earphones (i can't wear my headphones with this hat)

░ portable bathtub with nevermelting ice

░ portal to a random Karjala/Suomi/Eesti/Sampi forest

sometimes english speaking part of the internet gives me a brain damage

wanted to rant about too many (young!) westerners and their definition of Eastern Europe as "i still see you all as ex-soviet russia-light monolith", but decided to leave it in my notes because idk it's just ridiculous

upd: it's +26° outside

switching to my protective autistic-northern-person hazard suit

it's about

• body neutrality

• eco grief

will share my musings about a few concepts i've met while wandering the internet

later

even tho i've read about them briefly a couple of months ago, my brain didn't really process them until now

WHY THE FUCK IS THERE +19° OUTSIDE T___T

phew, that's all, i'm soooooooo physically tired after yesterday, will sleep more today!!!!

note to self: make challenges shorter for things i'm struggling with more (e.g. Karelian language learning), and slowly add more days after breaks

because online breaks are not too hard, and i kinda didn't realize 14 days could be too much for more complex tasks... at least as a first-time-challenge

TW: violent death (in literature)

about one of the Darkwood game encounters:

As for the charred corpse near the oven. For us Poles it's a cultural touchpoint. Here in Poland many generations of middle school students have been at some point traumatized by required reading of a short story called "Antek." It's a nineteen century work about what life was like for a penniless backwoods boy back in the XIXth century (spoiler alert: sheer hell). Title character's little sister Rozalka gets sick and their village soothsayer (poor peasants had no access to doctors back then) orders putting her into the bread oven "for three Hail Marys" to "burn the sickness out." We get treated to a lovely scene of the kid screaming from the inside while she is being burned alive and after that comes a short, emphatic description of her charred corpse.

> goes outside

> people

> day ruined

в цілому дуже хуйовий день, але:

гречана каша з м'ясом + "горішок" за 10грн + вода + підсмажений в тостері хліб